Yeah. It's true. I am a rebel...without a cause. Just a stubbornness and "me-do" attitude because why would God be able to handle me better than me?! Just because he created me? Has a plan to prosper and not to harm me? Knitted me in my mother's womb? Knows me better than I know me?! Come on! P-lease! Yeah. That's the attitude that has gotten me here. Where is here? Here is the place where I feel doomed to be once again because I can't won't really let go and let God do his thing in my life. I am SO afraid that he won't show up to get me through it and I can't won't deal with the disappointment from him that I have had with everyone else I ever trusted before. I can't won't allow that vulnerability. I hate saying can't. That's why I replace it with the truth of the matter. It's not that I can't, it's that I won't. Fear keeps me from it. I am afraid of the letdown. What if I lay it all on the line and t...
My journey from the realization that I was sleepwalking through my life through where I am today--living my life and taking ownership of who I am becoming each day!