Waking Up Me!

Eight years and nearly four months ago, I left my husband, my home, and my comfort zone and started over again. It wasn't easy to do, but it was the right decision for me then and still holds as such today. It took many years to get to the point where I believed I had done all I could do and knew that I could not continue to live as I was. Telling our kids we were getting divorced and I was moving out was hard. Having the days and nights where they wanted us together or were struggling with us being apart was harder. Seeing your child cry and struggle is an arrow to your already tender heart. As the mother, it was hard to leave my home and my family even knowing that our dissolution agreement gave us shared 50/50 custody. It bothered me that people might think that I was the one at fault. That I had done something to end my marriage. That I was the cheater. I wasn't, but no marriage fails because one person made all the mistakes. Marriages fail because people forget that it...

This morning, I woke up to Sara Evans' "A Little Bit Stronger" playing in my head. As I went through my day, I started thinking about the lyrics in the song and about where I am in this current growth process. While there are many things that can happen in an instant, there are other things  that take time.  A friend of mine, we'll call him M63, told me how life is much more like a crockpot than a microwave: It takes the Spirit within us to transform us...and it is a crockpot and not a microwave experience. While birth happens in a moment...growth is a process. Like the crockpot, we have to be connected to the Source - the Power...but it is through that power that the process takes place...but it is a process. So, think about a cut of beef you'd put into the crockpot. You can take a lesser cut of meat and slow cook it in the crockpot until it is tender and delicious--over time! If I took that same cut of beef and put it in the microwave even for a short ...