Yeah, newsflash, right?! Like anyone wants to be used. Like anyone goes out there with the intention of being used. I dunno. Maybe some people do. It's a sure thing that some people go out with an intention to use people. I know not everyone had malicious intent, but when you seek someone out to "fulfill a need", you use people. I wish more people were just up front about things. Like, "Hey, I think you're really cool. Want to hang out?" And leave it there. Not everything has to be a budding romance. If you're not feeling it, this is one area not to fake it till you make it.
Doesn't anyone care that this is someone else's heart you're playing with?! My heart?! F*ck! Seriously. Do I wear a sign that says, "Nice girl. Fun. Smart, yet naive. Enjoy!"? Honestly, I am happy to be a friend. I have LOTS of guy friends. I enjoy my guy friends.
Today marks 20 months since I last had sex. And, yes, that was with my now ex-husband and it is by choice. With my latest choice of men, it almost happened. I am thankful it didn't work out, though. I have waited this long to be with someone who is deserving of all I have to offer and this one turned out not to be. Everything truly does happen for a reason and I suppose what I learned today explains the reason behind why I didn't share something so special and so intimate with someone who was not worthy of all it means to me.