I held a boy in my arms, looking into his deep, blue eyes, his hand in mine, and I gave him my heart. He was my first. There was nothing more amazing or beautiful than him. My love for him was so great, that my heart overflowed, and the tears fell as I took him in with my eyes. I leaned in and kissed him and told him that I would forever love him; he was my everything. And for many years that didn't change. He was my first. My firstborn son!
If you know what it is like to hold that child in your arms for the first time. The one born of such love. The one who was born through pain and agony greater than anything you'd ever known. You understand what it is to look into that child's eyes for the first time and want nothing more than to love and protect them for the rest of your days. You give them everything you have. Your energy. Your time. Your love. And you see it returned in ways that you'd only imagined at first.
As time goes on, your love grows for that child. In the midst of challenges and hardships, successes and triumphs, you hold them tightly and whisper, "Mommy loves you, baby." Maybe you are blessed that they return that love in actions, body language or words. Then, as the days pass, they need you a little less. They stand more solidly on their own. Thing is that while they may not always need you, your hope is that they'll always need you. As the saying goes, "A mother holds her child's hand for a short while, and their hearts forever." For my first born, my sweet boy, I dedicate to him this song that will be forever his:
Donna Lewis - I Love You Always Forever by hushhush112
I love you, Matty!